Excuse Me? Where Do I Reap?

I've always heard it said that people come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime, but no one ever really tells you how you're supposed to differentiate between seasonal and lifetime. For a while I operated in the mindset that everyone in my life was always supposed to be there, whether it was friends, boyfriends, co-workers, etc. I would fight tooth and nail to make sure they didn't leave. Whatever it took, I did it. Even if it meant compromising my standards and values, I did it. I over apologized and flat out begged people to not be mad at me or walk out of my life. And when they did it anyway, I couldn't understand why. Money? I gave that. Gifts? I gave that. Time? I gave A LOT of that. Energy? I gave all of that. And they still left. I used to think that it was always my fault or that I said or did something that made them walk away. I would be so upset because I automatically faulted myself for their decision to leave, which caused much hurt, pain, tears, and confusion that only God and my therapist could sort out.

One might ask "how could you do all of that?" or say things like "I would never!"or "Girl, you crazy". It's okay if you said those things, I promise you I'm not offended. But, if as you were reading that first paragraph you were thinking about things you've done in the past that just might, a little bit, be somewhat similar to what I described, this post just might be for you.

I justified my actions back then by saying that I was just being nice, I had a big heart, or I was simply sowing seeds in people's lives. While all of those things are true, what I was missing was that God didn't necessarily intend for me to reap my harvest in the same place I planted the seeds.

The bible says in 2 Corinthians 9:6, "The point is this, whoever sows sparingly will also reap sparingly, and whoever sows bountifully will also reap bountifully.", which means if you give little, you'll receive little and if you give much, you'll receive much. But nowhere in that scripture, or the many others that talk about sowing and reaping, did it say that if you sow in one place you'll receive your return from the same place in which you sowed. And I'm not just talking about sowing into people financially, I'm talking about sowing time, energy, emotions, etc.

There are people who have been in relationships for years and they've tried EVERYTHING to make it work, but the relationship just doesn't seem to be moving in the same direction that they are. They don't want to walk away or give up on it because they've sown so much into this other person and they have history. They stay longer than they know they should because they're hopeful, expecting to one day receive everything they've given so willingly to that other person in return from that same individual. They're afraid of the reality that they've wasted so much time that they can't get back, so they do everything they can to prove to themselves that it was all worth it.

Those friendships that you gave your all to, thinking that y'all would be friends forever... those were worth it. The relationships that you felt like you were in all by yourself because you were the only one that gave 100%... they were worth it too. It was all worth it because God promises us that we are going to receive EVERYTHING we give out, but what if I told you that the place where you'll receive your harvest from is on the other side of your fear? What if the very things you are searching for and desiring to receive out of a friendship, relationship, or workplace can be found just on the other side of your comfortability?

The story of Ruth is a perfect example of someone leaving everything they knew and moving right into their destiny. Ruth had to journey from her home of 10 years to a place that she had never been before in order to experience the favor of God, so much so that she married the King and became the Queen God had always destined for her to be. Think about how uncomfortable that could be. I've been living in Baton Rouge for 8 years and the thought of moving somewhere else I've never lived before and having to readjust my entire life ... just the thought of it is overwhelming. Ruth even had a chance to go back to the only life she knew, but she made a choice to forget those things which were behind her and press forward.

As I get ready to close *looks at musician on the keyboard*, I want to direct your attention to Ecclesiastes 3:6 in The Message Bible which says there is "A right time to hold on and another to let go, stop holding." In other words, tap into the spirit of Elsa and let it go.

How much of yourself, your joy, your time, and your peace are you willing to sacrifice just to have someone around that God didn't even intend to be in your life this long? How long are you willing to hold on to the very thing that's keeping you from your harvest? God has called you to release because He's got something better in store for you, but you have to take a step on the other side of your fear in order to get it.

It's not going to be easy. Trust me, I've been there. Since I graduated from high school and enrolled at (THE) Louisiana State University, my life has gone through so many changes and people I was friends with for years, I barely speak to now. Ex-boyfriends who I thought God sent to be my husband (LOL) are merely figures of my past and honestly, I couldn't be more thankful.

Even now as I'm writing this post, I'm thinking of how this still applies to my life today. But I know from experience that God is faithful, you just have to trust Him.